Monday, August 8, 2011

Fearless

I find this is a good outfit to feel fearless in. And hiding behind the new camera helps too.

Fearless is not a word that I really feel like describes me, but I would like to change that. Really. I want to try. Part of the reason I named this blog "Favor the Brave" is because that is what I am doing by writing it. I am going outside myself, doing what I love, but also what scares me, sharing my successes and failures, my thoughts and observations. It's actually kind of a daunting undertaking when you look at it like that. 

But despite all my aspirations about living without fear, I think I really am ruled by it most of the time. There are always so many things that could go wrong and I am a worrier.

But there are always so many things that are about to go right
. At least that's what I've been telling myself lately.

As I embark on another semester, new classes, living with new roommates, planning my wedding and looking frantically for a job in a city (and state) I've never lived in before so I can get married at 22 I can't help thinking...ummm... wow. Scary. Subtext: What was I thinking?

I'm afraid I won't figure out how to balance a long distance engagement, college friends, classes, comps, and theater. I'm afraid I won't find a job, or that I'll be forced into a situation where I have to chose between what I love doing and eating. I'm afraid I won't find a place I can afford to live once I get there. I'm afraid my wedding won't stay under budget and still be the way I want it to be.

But more than anything, I'm afraid that I'll never push my limits because I'm afraid. And I don't know if there's a better reason to try to be fearless than that.

So here we go. Be strong, be calm, be brave. The Fall '11 mantra.

peace&love,
Jill

2 comments:

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  2. I understand where you're coming from. Needless to say at that point in one's life all those questions are come up. But let me assure you that I think you have your heart and your mind in the right place: You want the best out of life. I guess, though, if I could go back in time and tell my college self anything it would be to not worry SO much about life after college. Somehow, it works out. After I graduated I pursued what I loved, I worked my ass off, I chased a few dreams, and I accomplished all of it. Somehow everything does work out, as long as you've got your head screwed on straight, your chin up, and your hands always working. I know all these things about you to be traits of habit already. You're going to be fine. More than that, you're going to be awesome.

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